Stalkers Lovers Strangers

Have you even been listening?

Have you been reading this?

Have you stopped me from doing all this? I’m sorry I had to do this... I had to blog. I wanted the world to know my thoughts…. to know my love for you….

And blogging was the only way… to do this….. to tell the world how much you mean to me… To express my thoughts because I cannot share them with you anymore. We don’t talk anymore… we just think about each other sometimes, and it’s never really positive thoughts…. it’s not even negative, but I can’t say it gives us butterflies anymore… We are not lovers anymore…. We’re just strangers now…. First Love maybe and I wished it would have been the last for both…

Unfortunately I cannot make love last. Maybe we don’t deserve it… maybe I don’t deserve you, maybe you don’t deserve me, maybe we don’t deserve love. It could also be that it was a right love at the wrong time.

But anyway I still wonder if you ever think about me, miss me, and maybe read my blogs.

Do you?

You do miss me don’t you….. I hope you do, because I believe it was not fake whatever we had. For me it was all real… don’t know about you. I hope feelings were mutual.

So tell me…

Are we just strangers, exes, past lovers…. Maybe destined to love again. Maybe this time we can make it till the end of time.

Stop stalking me… Just call me someday…. On April fools Day maybe? Don’t You Wanna make a fool of me again?

B. R. ÔÖí

Excuse me… My boyfriend’s ex?

Why does he love you more than he loves me?

Did you have to come first? Always first in his mind. First in his life.

He remembers last new year. Says it was a very nice day. And he says that this new year sucks. Last new year, perhaps you were there. This time, I’m here. Still, you’re the one he remembers.

You dated several people at the same time, ignored him, gave him pain. I healed his wounds as much as I could.

Now he wounds me so that he can fill his own wounds left by you. You left him. Now he leaves me alone, not just alone, but he left me lonely.

Ex… Aren’t you? So, why are you unintentionally disturbing his present girl? Does she deserve this? Does she need to suffer from all of this just because of you… Indirectly it’s you. You’re causing me pain…. Because you gave him pain, and now he gives me the pain. I can take all the pain he wants to give me, but for how long? How long will I survive like this?

Answer me.

With Love and Confusions,

Bhabana Rabha.

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