1st April, 1999

To,

The one who called me today….

To the one caller who’s missed call I did pay some attention to…

I was excited to see your missed call, dear.

Thanks for calling ÔŁĄ

It was a surprise of a lifetime that you actually dialled my number after a gap of years…. 2 years, to be exact…. And hey, you made me happy! Plus, today, it was YOUR BIRTHDAY- the day which I usually spend thinking about you, and thinking about wishing you. But, I always refrain from doing so. Maybe because I feel that you won’t like me calling you anyway, or maybe because I feel you don’t deserve my calls.

You see, you betrayed me, you lied to me… Just too many times, so I felt like a fool, for loving someone who respects me least, much about everyday till forever.

I regret us, even now. I feel we should have met at some other point of time in our lives…. Or maybe we should have related to each other differently at that time. Anyway, we’re both a mess.

I love you.

I loved you. I loved your mess. How you couldn’t be with just one girl. How you still kept trying to love, haha. How you kept trying, yet kept lying… :”)

Anyway, Happy Birthday!

– B. R.

(P.S. the call was just a dream, fortunately…. Your voice was cute though)

Excuse me… My boyfriend’s ex?

Why does he love you more than he loves me?

Did you have to come first? Always first in his mind. First in his life.

He remembers last new year. Says it was a very nice day. And he says that this new year sucks. Last new year, perhaps you were there. This time, I’m here. Still, you’re the one he remembers.

You dated several people at the same time, ignored him, gave him pain. I healed his wounds as much as I could.

Now he wounds me so that he can fill his own wounds left by you. You left him. Now he leaves me alone, not just alone, but he left me lonely.

Ex… Aren’t you? So, why are you unintentionally disturbing his present girl? Does she deserve this? Does she need to suffer from all of this just because of you… Indirectly it’s you. You’re causing me pain…. Because you gave him pain, and now he gives me the pain. I can take all the pain he wants to give me, but for how long? How long will I survive like this?

Answer me.

With Love and Confusions,

Bhabana Rabha.

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